Changes on the Horizon

Sooooooooooo I made a very important decision this weekend. We debated it back and forth, over and over, upside down and inside out. I wanted to be sure it was the right choice and the right now. And I think, in the end, it is. I decided.....drum roll please..... I am moving home! I am going to be moving home to be closer to my family and of course my love. As of June 11 I will be living in Oakley again, with my dad, atleast for a bit. Daniel and I are working on getting things settled for our own place, but that requires BOTH of us to get working back home so I better find a job quick!

I am really excited about it. I was back home this weekend and spent some time with my dad and Daniel's parents and I just felt so at peace there. I know this is the right decision to be made and I am really looking forward to being so close to everyone I love. It will be really hard leaving my two best friends, though. We have grown up together in the hardest times of our lives and challenged and supported eachother through so much. I love Chelsea and Amanda as my family and leaving them is going to be very sad. But......there is even more to come home to so of course this is all worth it! Actually, everything is fitting into place like a perfect little puzzle. I was listening to Air One radio this morning and heard something really inspiring...they were talking about how you know if the choices you are making are what God wants for you. When you make a choice that brings you peace you can be assured that God wanted you to take that path. I feel very much at peace and know that this is where he want me to head. Looking forward to moving in 7 weeks!! :)

p.s. I get to see the most amazingly perfect-for-me man in less than 4 days, yay!!! :)

Saying Goodbye to Goodbyes

So, I thought I would start a blog because I always seem to have something to say and there just enough space on Facebook to say it. Now Amanda thinks the title of my blog may come off as a bit stalkerish, so if you have a better suggestion, let me know, because I couldn't come up with anything better. I am going to use this space to write out all my emotions, good and bad because I need a place to share it all. There is just so much changing and going on in my life right now and sometimes I need to let it all out. I know my roomies are tired of hearing about all the "what-if's" of my life because it stresses them out when I change my plans too much and they just told me to stop telling them my ideas until I make up my mind. So.....I guess I will be writing it all out on here so I have someone to tell, even if it is cyberworld.

So, as many of you may know, I have been visiting Daniel every weekend for the last four weeks. I drive the 8 hour drive to spend friday night through Sunday night with my love, and of course it is worth it. But this weekend I don't get to go. Partly because I'm an idoit and had to spend and extra $90 on my plane ticket for last weekend when I realized I booked my return flight for Monday MAY 10 not APRIL....therefore I spent all the gas money I could have used to drive down to see him, just to get back to my real life. And as much as I appreciate my work and my boss, real life just isn't very enjoyable without him here. I'm ready for him to be home. I'm ready to not have to say goodbye anymore...well until he has more training or is deployed....but I don't want to say goodbye when we get back to normal life again. So that is where we are at....trying to figure out how not to say goodbye anymore. And that starts with him getting a job. Depending on where that is, I may have to find a new job too. That's why there are so many "what-if's" in my life right now, it's all riding on a bunch of unknowns.

The bottom line, we refuse to say goodbye anymore and we trying to figure out how to change that :)